My most prominent pregnancy symptom is my around-the-clock nausea. Besides the poor condition of my skin it is pretty much all I think about. Whether to eat, what to eat, when to eat, when not to eat. I have some of the other typical symptoms like sore boobs, slow digestive system (and all that comes with that) and in general I just don't feel well and certainly don't feel like myself (my non-preggo self). The last couple of days have been hard mentally, trying to keep myself positive and not feeling like this a lot of sacrifice on my part. Having already lost a pregnancy I feel guilty for even thinking that. Pretty selfish. And that a lot of women right now would give their left arm to have constant m/s if it meant becoming a mother at the end. It's my reality though. I remind myself how lucky we are that we go pg so quickly twice and remind myself of the wonderful gift that will come at the end. 9 months is hardly a sacrifice in that sense.
Not complaining anymore, but the nausea makes it hard to think about anything else. I can't remember the last time I took a good picture or even felt inspired or motivated to pick up the camera. I intermittently have creative thoughts here and there, about the house or happy living Design or something else, but rarely have the motivation or strength to do anything about them. I am in some interstitial space for the time being. I just hope it all comes back at some point. Blog reading and occasionally posting on twitter has kept me a bit connected. Just enough for now.